My opinion on my career changed a lot growing up. At primary school, I always knew exactly what I wanted, it just happened to change every couple of months, but this was fine, I knew I’d pick one and I could do anything I wanted because I was amazing. When I got to secondary school, I wanted to make money, I wasn’t sure how I was going to do this, but I was not going to be poor and I still had plenty of time to make a decision. At university, I started getting a little bit more concerned about the lack of direction in my life but I thought I’d figure it out before graduating. After graduating, I still had no idea and I panicked, I just wanted a job, any job that would sound good to my parents. And I got one.
But the problem is, what do you do when you get there? No-one gives you any advice anymore, you just get suddenly cut off from the advice and are expected to know what you want and what you need to get there. How are you supposed to know that you’ve found the career for you? I like my job but how do I know I’m not missing out on an undiscovered passion? And if this is my career now, how do I figure out how to progress?
I thought after school, and grades that I would be able to stop comparing myself to others so much but I just find new people to compare yourself to. I’m almost 24 now and I think I’m now at the point where I have to stop ‘just seeing what happens’ and actually have a plan for my career and for life. But how do I progress with that when I still feel about 13?
When will I feel like a grown up?!